UnTiTLED....

i just wanna write something...
i don't even know the purpose of my intention to update this blog..maybe its been a long time since i hadn't been updating "my so-called friend"..
life is always been the same..hectic schedule sometimes don't even give me a space to breath..
but being with bunch of good friends was a really good remedy to relieve the stress that kept accumulating ,laughing together on such a silly riddle that was no doubt a ridiculous one..
nevertheless, i love it so much even its childish and silly because its the only time when i really had a good time here..and was able to forget all these problems..Problems were problems no matter what. Without problems..life would be so dull..
so..we should love problems! =p

Sleepy... ZzZzZzzZ!!!!!!!

so sleepy..could i just close my eyelids and let myself drift into dreamland..but i need to work out on something first before that.. i admit that i'd been palyful during this break...enjoying the holiday as much as i could..
but it scared me sometimes..enjoying too much could really harm me in terms of i'll forget what i'd been learnt or maybe too much insecurity that enveloped me..coz most of the time i'll just buried myself into lots of book..till i felt like i was gonna collapsed in any second..
i certainly knew that's habit wasn't good at all because i just put myself into some kind of stress that'll destroy me in the end..but i just couldn't avoid it..
sleepiness has gone..now i want to get back to my own work..
goodnight my blog!!!!!! you're helping me to cure this sleepiness even for a while..hahaha..

Order oF re@cTI0N.!!!!!!

how in the world i want to complete this lab report..my biggest problem is i don't know what else to put in that damn discussion..
ergghh...hopefully there'll be a way to solve this problem..
this complicated lab report is soo ... annoying!!!!!
nope..i don't think its annoyed me to hell..its just that i was kind of clueless right now..
i feel nothing actually..just hoping that this so called beloved lab report could be finish today..pray for me..
i need to cook for lunch..so lazy
but i still need to get off my butt right now and go to cook
or else my sisters will babble non-stop and this is what we called annoying ..
before i write something nonsense ..i'll stop for a while coz there are pile of works need to be handled..
i love u so much!!!!! *my blog* hahahaha.. =P

another day...

i was just heading home from pekan..and its not like i felt tired or anything doing nothing for the whole day..except for eating,sleeping,,eating sleeping and the cycle kept rotating until..i couldn't figure it out either..
no matter what..it's like getting a really sweet revenge for being tortured doing all studying stuff non-stop just before the break..its such a good feeling to be at home,even for a while..
i miss all those silly things that i kept doing whenever i was back at home..
FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!
it's just too sweet and wonderful to be immortal..

its just so like home..

of course it felt like being at home..
coz i'm home..finally..i'd able to get away from all those stressful events that kept hunting me..
tests are over!!!
it felt like some of the burdens on my shoulder were removed for a while..
yet there are so many things to sort out during this mid-term break..
how i really wish that all the lecturers forgot to give assignments but my dreams go downhill..
they'd prepared lots of assignments more than i could imagine..
so tired lor..
sleepless night,tests awaiting for two days in a row really made me feel like a zombi..
now i need to fill in upu's form..
and here the problem is..
i'm in the middle of nowhere..
the unknown future
i need to make up my mind
its not like i didn't know what i really want..
but it scared me
whether
i'd made the right choice in choosing the path of my life..
confused!!!!!

ThingS tO bE DONE!!!!!

*lab RepOrts...in progress
*bio assignments..haven't started anything yet..need to finish it by hook or by crook
*tests and tests and tests for the last week before mid-term break..
so many thingssss to be done!!!!!!!argh!!!!!
not stressed out yet..but i think it'll coming soon..just wait and see
problems uncountable..
and now i need to finish all these things no matter what
or else..i'll be dead!!!!!!
no more blogging..for a while..
and i just hope a miracle can happen in any moment!

ohioOo!!!!!!!!

Its early in the morning..and yet i haven't had a proper sleep..i'm sleepy but my beloved lab report kept bugging me to finish it on no matter what..there's too much assignments waiting ahead and i felt like putting aside all those papers and sleep for the whole day..how i wish i'd the urge to do something like that..why not! but i just can't do that..
just a few hours ago, fadhilah was giving a tazkirah at the 'surau' and she's kept mentioning about how lucky we're to have a mom..of course they're so damn lucky to have someone who'll never left their sides, someone to rely on and won't leave them no matter what..how i wish i'd another chance to be loved and cherished by a person called mom..nevertheless, i don't think fate is cruel just because it took away someone that i cherished the most because Allah never let me felt alone..not even a single bit of time..He's giving me the most wonderful dad in the world..a loving and caring stepmother and an adorable little brother..He's taking away my mom, yet He's giving more than anyone could wish and i was really thankful for that..family is my life..and i miss them so damn much..
they're the persons that i treasure the most in this whole world. Savoring the moments with them is one precious thing that i would never let go no matter what

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heartache,confused,miserable..
whats wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just couldn't figure it out..maybe i'll think too much..my inferiority complex is just too much to bear..Allah,please give me the strength to put aside all those feelings..why is it that i can't be like other people,handling their feeling or emotion so well..these feelings kept bothering me and it makes me so depressed sometime..be more optimist, can you?erghhhhhh..i just wanna pour out all those feelings that really make my life miserable. anyway this is what life is all about..experiencing all those feelings..happy,sad,nervous,excited..all these feelings spice up our lives, making it more meaningful and memorable..wouldn't it be so dull if we're happy or sad all the times..whatever the feeling is..just bear with it coz this is actually the process of learning..
like what my friend had said..we tend to choose the best mug of all but we forget to actually savour the taste of great coffee that lies within the mug..this how we treat our lives, busy searching and making effort to reach our own goal yet forget to savor this short life given to us..how a wastage..

little monster

This little creature whom I consider such an adorable baby had really turned into a little monster without i even realized it. What else choices do i had aside from accepting the fact that my little brother was really growing up to be such an annoying lil boy. Nevertheless its still fun though to have him around..hahaha..he just so love throwing tantrums whenever he felt really sleepy or he felt hungry.That's actually the time when i really hate to deal with. What a nuissance. He seems to act as he's already expert in everything.For goodness sake, he's not even able to stand on his own feet let it be to walk properly.. and now he had his eyes on everything especially those with really striking colour, grabbed the things whenever he felt like it.. those tempting paper that he really like the most coz him to be more aggressive..so far he's not creating a big mess..yet..who knows what'll happen in just a few months when he got his own feet..
i just can't imagine it..we'll wait and see.. =D

MissiNg..

It was really hard for me to pour out what i'd felt right now. It was this kind of mixed feeling that i don't even understand despites of all the thinking and reflection that i'd been doing for the whole day.Sometimes i felt a surge of happiness without any reasons. In other occasion, i felt a tinge of sadness all of sudden especially when i remembered all those awful things that attacked me when i was least prepared. I know there's no use to weep over the pasts but sometimes it just kept popping up in my mind without i even realized it. However, remembering those awful things actually give me an unexplainable new spirit to wake up from the failure and realizing things that I 'd not been able to before.Besides, I was the kind of person who'll easily remember something in the past even if it was not really worth it to even remember . Though how awful things can get in my life, i know there must be something worthy hidden behind it .Who knows it will eventually turned me into a whole new person, more matured and tougher. I'm not that matured yet in facing all the hardships awaited, that's why i was kind of lost when something really bad happened to me.

Mistakes,life and community..

Last night,I'd encountered a case regarding a a well known public figure. He had committed three offenses like being involved in fighting and the newest is the hit and run case.For me it was a serious offense to be done by a person but when i heard about the punishment he's going to face, I think it was an illogical kind of punishment.Based on the articles i'd been reading, this person had admit his mistake at the police station a few hours after the incident. Admitting his own mistake at the police station wasn't an easier thing to do especially when one is put under this kind of situation especially being the public figure.But despites of all the consequences that he might face in the future, he had make the right decision to admit it even though he knows that his career at a stake. It is not easy for someone to admit his own mistake especially when it's involved the hit and run case. However, in this case, the victims didn't have any injuries, lucky for him though. When I've discovered that certain netizens want him to be kicked out of his group, i don't really know whether it is the right thing the do.When we think about it again,this person has realized his own mistake and being suspended is hard enough for him to endure.But for being kicked out is just too harsh especially for someone who actually has regretted and admitted his own mistakes which rarely being done by people who committed serious offense. Because of the first case he's involved in,he was deeply depressed not only because of his career at a stake but the community seems to be looked at him as though he'd involved in robberies, rape or homicide. I don't know why some people feel satisfied to see someone who's actually has realized his own mistakes to be suffered.I personally think it is our responsibility to actually guide this people to be in the right path and being realized the mistakes one had committed is good enough.The same goes to the problematic students. Even these delinquent students had realized their own mistakes, sometimes certain people seems to think that delinquent youngsters who they called trash will forever be a trash. This perception is totally unreasonable because human being can change and the community plays an important role in guiding these people and not punishing them especially when they had realized their mistakes. Regarding the cases that I'd mention, i think if we're in his shoes, we'll understand what he feels and the depression he had to endure due to his wrong doing.

the journey of the day..

There's nothing much happened today..its just another boring day of my term break..
well its not really boring anyway..how can we let the times flying away so wastefully (like i spend all my times beneficially) so pathetic.
as usual, i woke up a little bit earlier than yesterday..haha..yesterday i was just got carried away watching gokusen and the result was ..i woke up extremely late..luckily i wasn't left my subuh prayer..hahaha..it seems like i'd turned out to be a ######## what's that..i couldn't guess it either..
i need to look after my lil brother..he'd really turned out to be an adorable baby but still i couldn't figure it out where in the world he inherited that kind of
attitude..he loved to impersonate what i did..the truth was i was the one who tought him to do such nonsense things..useless big sister..
whatever it is,he made my life so exciting,complete and not so dull like always..and i love him so damn much..i also loves love all my siblings..its not like i'll abandon my other siblings because of wa'ie.ok i'd been saying unnecessary thing..so i'll keep going to watch gokusen bye!
wassalam

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"Everyone seems to run away when there's trouble but if you ran away,that's it.Nothing can be done or solved.When encountering obstacles or hardships,pull yourself together and face the challenge ahead with no doubt".

hERE We @re aGAIN..!

i didn't know where to begin...its kind of hard to mention about this matter..
actually...
ergghhh..why is it so hard for me to do this!
well actually .....
there's nothing "important" to mention in this blog...
i just wanna play around...it was kind of boring today with nothing to waste time on.its not like i was using all my times wisely or beneficially during my lifetime..its just that i was always busy doing this and that..and when I'd got so many free times which i rarely had,i didn't know what to do anymore..hahahaha..
so pathetic.
i didn't have any idea what to do right now. MUET was just around the corner and i had not prepare anything for this important event...i didn't even know the real format of this exam.
we had not learn anything.i felt like I'd abandon my English and it was totally sucks right now.

BreakiNg n3ws!!!!!!!!!

it's over! its definitely,totally and fully OVER...alhamdulillah.. i was finally being dragged out from this thing..hahaha..what was that exactly?
FiNAL eXAM WAS over...phew..it was pretty hectic studying all day non stop,being surrounded with papers, books,tutorials etc...it was a really havoc week especially when the three of us suddenly being out of our minds while studying...
#there'll be a shouting came out all of sudden especially from fadhilah ...saying..aaahhhhhhhh..i'm not finish these yet,i haven't do that..what the heck was it all about? why was it i haven't know these things before?..these were all her famous saying while studying...hahaha..it was really funny because she puts all her emotions in expressing how nervous she was getting up as our exam getting nearer.
#fisha and fadhilah would suddenly bickering each other..saying..see,i've said it already..you didn't want to believe me..kurang asam..kurang ajar..what else..i forgot already.
#Conflicts,problems,fighting..all came in once causing the three of us being out of our minds in a split second..hahaha..i like these things the most..
#our room was practically in mess and it was much more worse than before..
and now we are free in this free country,free to do anything during this free holiday!

FooliNg arOUNd the MAll..classmates

sleEPovER..at farah's House

i'd fiNAlly gettINg thEre..

who would've thought that i'd finally had the guts to go to SACC mall, PKNS...which i'd never stepped on since i was in shah alam..all my classmates had been there for millionth times and i'd only got there once..hahaha..so pathetic.
i'd never been to the mall for ages mainly because i was LAZY..
it's not about going to the mall in shah alam that i'm gonna mention here..it was actually that i'd been on cloud nine today..not really today but the moment i'd got released from pile of works,books,lectures,assignments,tests,etc for a while..hahaha..i was really happy!o
Our first semester had finally end today..but still we'd need to get prepared mentally and physically for the war ahead*sigh*...FInaL eXAm..
I was really had fun today with my classmates..we're going out straightly after math test..going to pkns..break fasting together and then fooling around the mall..hahaha..it'd been a long time since i'd got a chance to have fun wholeheartedly accomponied by my classmates..i'd felt like loads had been lifted from my shoulder for a while..so i'll just enjoyed it before i would be tortured myself todeath after this...hahaha..
i didn't know what i'd been blabbering about,so just bear with it..
it's early in the morning and all my roommates had fallen asleep now..so i'm gonna join them to dreamlands..bye!
wassalam..

I've got it wrOng!...erghhh..

i've just finished sitting for chemistry test...finally..i've got a chance to breath and lie down for a while after struggling to death for the whole week..
but..now..i'm seriously felt frustrated with my own mistakes..
i'D GOT IT Wrong! for born haber cycle...waaaa...i'm not supposed to do that..it bore 10marks..its just too much for me to lose it..
misconception + confusing = i'd answering the question wrongly!
ok...no need to felt frustrated..as sya (syarafina) said let bygone be bygone..(she's actually asking me to put her name in this blog) so now sya i'd mention your name here..are you happy now??????? my annoying syara who loves to cry..hahaha..heartbreaking lil girl..
i've got four more tests next week..allahuakbar! i'll be sleepless for the whole week...Busy LOO..
then fInal exam are waiting for me right after raya..so happy! ^~^!
the battle of the year would begin now..wooho..tension,stress,sleepless night would evolved around me..huhu..final was just around the corner..
nevertheless i was really happy coz i'd watched a korean movie last night..there were seriiously a hot good looking guy with a super duper cute baby in that movie..whoaa! so excited just by looking at them(both of the guy and that cute lil baby) made my heart thumping really loudly...so sweet!...hahaha..i'd been crazy for a while..
i need to get back to my pile of works that were waiting for me..i thought they missed me terribly..that's why they're waiting for me..hahaha..bye
wassalam..

uRiNe AnALysi$... ^_^

hoho..i'm so happy right now...
i've got so much informations regarding the urine analysis...so i can proceed to the next procedure and the most crucial part which is..DiScussion..hahaha...so interesting to do this test..
from the moment we collected someone's urine..doing the test and now discovered the content of the urine..so exciting and the feeling is erghhh..didn't know how to described in words..
no matter what..i felt this was the most interesting experiment compared to others which were kind of boring..huhu..boring to death!
but..i'm still need to help my dad doing his works especially right now he's really busy with his 'Iso'..so happy to help him..i didn't know why..maybe because i've got a chance to teach him the way he taught me during my diapers day..hahaha..just kidding..
tomorrow..we'll go back to kampung..i've just got to eat durian..yummy..yummy..hopefully there's still durian at tok ki's house.. "craving for these thingy for such a long time"
can't wait.......