you've been granted with lots of wonderful things in your life,

your parents love you unconditionally,

not even once in your whole life time they ask for anything in return,

they love you despites all the bad things you'd been doing for all this while,

you'd seen with your own eyes how your late mom sacrificed lots of things for the sake of your happiness,

despites of the uncontrollable spreading of malignants inside her own body which slowly eating her alive,

she never forget to love and attend your needs,

she endured all the pain for you, your dad and your siblings,

she knew all along that she'll be return to her own creator soon,

she accepted the fact that her time in this world was really short,

and still she never forget to carry out her responsibility as a muslim, mom and wife though she sometime couldn't afford to get up by herself,

you'd seen all those things display right in front of your eyes..

so please be strong the way your mother did,

and never give up cause you have Allah by your side,

don't you dare to put all the sacrifes the'd done for you into a waste..

life during these days was really really hectic..it was so suffocating till i felt that i couldn't breath sometimes..i do not know how in the world that i was able to go through all those things..sometimes i felt that it doesn't belong to me yet it stroked me how much efforts i'd been put on to get this far..so i just couldn't put my effort to waste..it was hard..seriously.. i admit for the first time i got clueless kept forgetting and mixing up the things that i'd been memorized before..it was really unusual of me..ya Allah please help me..i just really need you now..i didn't want to disappoint all my treasures in life..i didn't want to let them down because that was the last thing i would ever do..but i just kept disappointing 'em without i even realized it..